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Basically I've been going to counselling sessions and my counsellor, Christine, suggested that I keep a journal so i can let out all my feelings. And I might do just that, so I should be coming on here a lot more often now
:)
- Mood:
tired
Early birthday present from the mother
innit ;)
Can't really tell the difference on this photo, but I've had it about 2 inches shorter, it's more shaped around the face and the fringe it better.
And I've also had a phone :)
And £40
Oh yes I love birthdays :) Even if it is in two days
- Mood:
loved
Probs one of the best drawing's that I've ever done :D Room for improvement though, but I'll get there soon (she has the neck like a giraffe lol). Hopefully I'll get a good A level grade in art if i carry on practicing *fingers crossed*
I'm constantly tired and bombarded with homework. Annoying annoying annoying.
And I'll tell you what else is bloody annoying, that fact that people seem to think that they can catch a disbility. WTF. A couple of weeks back a girl called Ria started at the college and she has cerebral palsy. People are generally judgemental anyway when somebody new comes along, so I expected a lot of people to be rude and not approach her. But there was also something else. they were looking at her as if they were afraid that they were going to catch her disability. People were blatantly ignoring her and making her feel isolated. I felt wary of her, but I am with every new kid. The last time I approached the "new kid" I was so kind to her (and it was sincere, I genuinly felt sorry for her and wanted to make her feel welcome). But she bullied the fuck out of me, and I still haven't got over it properly as it affects most the thing i do and feel. So I had more of a reason to ignore her than anyone, yet I was the only person who spoke to her. And tbh I'm the only one who helps her to classes, even if I'm not in that class. It makes me so mad. It's as if everybody's got an "I'm alright jack" mentality. I'm not trying to say that I'm perfect and I have no faults, because I'm far from perfect. Further than you could ever imagine. But would it really hurt for people to be less judgemental?? And I wish that they'd use their brains: YOU CANNOT CATCH CEREBRAL PALSY SO IT'S O
I don't think I belong on this planet really...
- Mood:
annoyed
But I have realised something recently. I'm so different to everyone else. Before I would just put on an act, so I could blend in and survive. I was still being me, just a dumber version of me. Intelligence is frowned upon where I come from, people mistake it for snobbery. It's a bit daft really, because you don't have to be bright to be a snob, you can be dumb and a snob....
But now I'm being myself, I feel a little isolated, the realisation that I'm an oddball has hit me - and very unexpectedly. Don't get me wrong, I don't want to change myself, but it would be nice to find someone that understood me and didn't look at me like an alien. People just laugh at my quirky ways, as if they think I was intending to be funny. I want to meet somebody who realises that it's part of me and accepts that.
I suppose I'm just moaning but that's how I feel.
I went on an art trip today. I thought it would be horrible (that's the pessimistic Virgo moon in me :P) but it was actually very interesting. I suppose it's because I'm used to being riduculed by my peers, well the snooty, popular girls. But nobody judged me, they just let me be. It was quite refreshing actually.
And the best bit is......I have Sims 2 again! My sister brough the double deluxe edition and I'm addicted again lol. It's taken up a lot of memory on my computer though, so I suppose I'll have to start deleting stuff.
Off to bed now, I've been on my feet all day on that art trip drawing that bloody bridge....in the rain!!!
- Mood:
impressed
English Language = A
English Literature = A
Maths = C
Science = B
Art = A
Graphics = B
RE = B
Citizenship = B
Sport Leadership = Distintiction (Equivalent to 4 A grades)
PE = D
Nutrition and Health = Pass
Nutrition and Exercise = Pass
Only I could get the highest mark attainable in Sport (which is one of the hardest subjects taken at GCSE) and then fail PE lmao.
- Mood:
excited
Well I think that they are both beautiful. I can't understand why thwy wouldn't let the girl on the right show her face on TV. Yes, her teeth are crooked but most people wouldn't have really cared as she's just a child. (They also thought that her face was too chubby. WTF!!! Would you rather she her looking anorexic!!!)I suppose what angers me the most is that this is just further contributing to the mess the media has made of young, impressionable girls' heads: that we have to perfect and if we're not we're not good enough.
And then there's peolle moaning that girls are too obsessed with image, what with excessive straightening of hair, hair extensions, make up, fake tan, fake nails etc. And the percentage of teens and young adults having plastic surgery has increased worringly so.
And now they're puttig pressure on little girls to look perfect, when they should be playing with dolls and enjoying being a child.
Apparently the girl on the right of the picture (the one who wasn't allowed to sing) has just shrugged off the whole thing. That doesn't mean it okay, it could have deeply affected her but she just isn;t showing it. Or maybe she's too young to understand it properly, but what kind of issues will she have when she's older? She will always remember that they thought she was too ugly to show her face to the world on TV, and she will always be remembered that way by everyone else. Now how is that fair???
I'd like to see the person who wouldn't let her appear at the olympics. I bet he/she is an ugly cunt - and therefore has no place to tell a child that they're too ugly.
- Mood:
irritated
If you could be God for a day, what three things would be at the top of your to-do list? Submitted By |
2) Banish all wars.
3) Sort out all this global warming lark, because humans aren't doing much about it (well, some are but not enough are).
- Mood:
creative
I have pyjamas of white and blue
Reminding me of how I miss you
I have a belly that's always empty
Pertruding bones, many, plenty
I miss your face, I miss your smile
You said you'd be gone for just a while
I have a cough that hurts my chest
I have no hope but I try my best
To carry on like you told me to
Come save me papa, I miss you
Thou shalt not be a victim, thou shalt not be a perpetrator. Above all, thou shalt not be a bystander - Holocaust Museum, Washington DC
- Mood:
sad
You are on a plane that's about to crash. You have time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call and what do you say? Submitted By |
I'd ring my mom and dad's house, and tell them i loved them all and I was sorry for being a pain all these years.
- Mood: tired
You are allowed to place three items from your lifetime into a box that will be opened in fifty years. What do you put in, and why? Submitted By |
So I'd put in a photo of myself of what I look like now. So I can look back on it and realise that I wasn't as bad as I thought I was (that's what always happens when you look back at photos of yourself lol)
I'd put in my gcse examination results
And I'd also put in my leavers book, where all my friends wrote messages wihsing me good luck when I left school.
- Mood:
crazy
Submitted By |
- Mood:
curious
No doubt I'll mess it up in the first hour, like every other fresh start I've had.
I've got into sixth form college, and I'll be studying Psychology, English Literature and Art. And I start on September 3rd (hence the fresh start lol)
I had a birght idea, over a year ago actually. I wanted to be a child councellor, or go down the route of child psychology but my mind changes every ten seconds.
And apart from that I have no idea what I want to do with my life.
:/
- Mood:
blank
Somebody made me laugh the other day. They said: "I hate racism and homophobia and chavs."
So what they were actually saying was that they dislike prejudice, yet they practice it?
And the vats majority of my friends have put on their Bebos under a "what I hate" heading: "emos. they should all die"
I don't understand what this whole "war" is about??
Being racist or homophobic is really looked down on these days (and so it should be) because we live in a society full of political correctness. But a couple of decades ago, it was more acceptable to be racist, and coming out the closet was majorly frowned upon. Gay marriage wasn't even allowed until recently!!
It's like people can't be racist, or homophobic, or practice pretty much any types of discrimination - so they find something/someone else they can be prejudiced against - which is in this case emos or chavs.
I used to think emos/goths etc were total freaks when I was younger (before I hit my teen years). I stereotypes them as devil worshipers, wannabe vampires - because I was ignorant. Then I became one of those emo kids, and I began to hate chavs - because it seems to be the done thing to do - and a lot of chavs I had come across weren't very nice to me because of the way I dressed.
Now I'm older, I'm more open minded and a hell of a lot more wiser. I'm not in any particular group, I'm not a chav, I’m not an emo - I'm just a Laura ;)
And I've realised, the whole war between these two groups is completely pointless. It sounds cheesy, but we are all equal, yet different. But our differences make us special, they make life more exciting.
Be proud of who you are and in turn let other people be proud of who they are.
- Mood:
contemplative
[Image from modthesims2]
They tried to make me go to rehab
But rehab doesn't care
Sang my fragile heart out
It was like I wasn't there
I wake up in an empty bed
Oh how I need you back
Your tattooed pocket upon my breast
Now I go back to black
My body is a painting
Of a thousand words and more
I call for you in my sleep
Cry for you on the kitchen floor
Head is fucked, so are my looks
Limelight makes me feel alone
The curtain opens, flash a smile
My tears dry on their own
- Mood: creative
0
500, 60, 93
Numbers to you
Much more to me
Bones so beaitiful
Curves so cruel
Anorexic bitches
Sure got me fooled
Mirror, mirror
On the Wall
Who's the fattest
Of them all?
Make me slender,
Make me slim,
Make me toned,
Make me Thin.
Is this the way
It's meant to be?
Make me love me
For being me.......
- Mood:
gloomy
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Yes I'm cool.
- Location:The Street Corner
- Mood: crazy
English Literature - Awaiting Result
Maths - AR
Science - B
Fine Art - B
Graphics - B
Sport Btec - Distinction
Nutrition and Health - C
Nutrition and Exercise - C
PE - AR
RE - AR
Citizenship - AR
Done okay so far but I'm worried about the ARs (Awaiting results) :S
Got my Maths Calculator paper June 2nd
Oh dear....
- Mood:
anxious
I can't wait for this to come out!
- Mood: excited
Corkscrew Curls
Makeshift swing tied to a tree
Lazy and hot summer days
Innocent, oblivious, ever so free
This is where my little gal plays
Swinging happily, laughing contently
Pale blue eyes sparkle like stars
Skirt flaps around your knees gently
Comforting noise of passing cars
Swinging back and forth without a care
Oblivious to the world passing by
Perfect corkscrew curls in your hair
Somewhat fictitious. Why did you die?
A fantasy, a dream of what you would be
Maybe you're upstairs looking down on me.
- Mood:
depressed
STOLE
They came one day
And stole her away
She begged, she pleaded
It was her soul they needed
Bit by bit, part by part
Fed off her confidence
Ripped out her heart
Called her cruel names
Played their silly games
She cried for help
She screamed so loud
They turned away
Heard no sound
At night she'd weep
Cry in her sleep
Left with bad dreams
Heart torn at the seams……
One day, no crying,
Soul stopped dying
Someone turned around
Noticed she made a sound
Taking her by the hand
They showed her the way
She deserved to live life
Each and every day
They stole her heart,
Could never steal her soul
But a part is still missing
Now she'll never feel whole
- Location:Animalia ;)
- Mood: creative
